Anniversary

Its been two years since my "dark weekend" as I prefer to call it. I was reminded of this tonight when i stumbled upon a journal that had this among its pages:

April 2008

I

push pull tug grab scream smash beat infuriate -
all to see a loyal reaction.

Frustration's ransom dethrones my tears -
Im immune to Sanity.

What wind i ride not many tame
I fear its getting the best of me.


I admit old wounds ripped open for a moment when I read it. I pray to God i will never have to go there again. For now im taking deep breaths, reminding myself of my current situation - which is much brighter in a general sense.